Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Quickie! ...okay maybe not so.

*Blow off dust*
*cough cough*

Hello again. *does an awkward wave*

I don't remember the last time I blogged.
Indeed it has been waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.. too long.

Who still blogs? I do.
Well every once in a blue moon, that is. Heh.

Let's see, where shall I begin?


1. Graduated!
YEAAAAAAHHHHHAAAHAHAHAAAYYYYY yeay yeah, yeah. Graduated from college in December. Now my introduction would be..

"Hi, good morning. My name is Kenn, your PHYSIOTHERAPIST for today."

HAHAHAHAHA.

But then, 6 months later. Here I am, about to start my degree in 2 weeks time. lol.
I'm a student...again.



2. Temporary.
Well since my last post in September, *I'm sorry. LOL. But oh well, it's not like anyone reads my blog, so it's somehow safe here? Heh.* indeed it has been temporary.

Temporary what, you may ask?

PEOPLE.

TEMPORARY PEOPLE.

So there's this tweet that I saw the other day,

"From the age 19 - 22, you will meet a lot of temporary people."

And I sat down and thought to myself, indeed.
A lot of temporary people.
People came..
and left.

But oh well, there's this verse that I like to sing:
*proceeds to listen to that song*

Haha over the past few months, or rather for the past year, I've developed and lived according to this saying:

"Do I look like I care?"

"Never put too much expectation in someone."

"Pictures can be deceiving."


All these lessons..are through experiences.
Bad experiences.
And no one to pick you up.
Sometimes all you have is yourself.
And Him, of course. He NEVER left.
And through each painful day, time did its magic.
I was okay again. 

And today I can proudly look at you with a smile and say,

"Let bygones be bygones. Do not chase after what is gone. If it was meant to be, it will be."

But I must say, even now, I can pretty much relate to Queen Elsa.
HAHAHAHA OKAY PLEASE, I'M NOT THAT CHILDISH BUT somehow..it's true?

"Stay away, I do not wish to hurt you. It is only for your own good."

"Yes, I'm alone, but I'm alone and..free."


Like a rose, as pretty it may seem, there are thorns which are bound to prick and.. hurt.

Okay, enough liao. Moving on.



3. Part time!
YES, like..yes. I've got a part time on weekends!
Which I like pretty much. Heh.
I get to play with ALL THESE ADORABLE MINI HOOMANS.
It might be tiring at times, but looking at them so happy, it makes me happy as well.

"Bye bye teacher."
"Teacher. look."
*Kid holds onto your finger*
*Kid gives you a mischievous look and breaks into a big smile*
*Kid runs towards you to give you a hug hug.*

I just kennot. You get me? I. Just. Kennot.
All these small, small gestures. 
May God bless all you tiny hoomans and grow up to be big, and good people okay? :')

What's next?

Well like I mentioned earlier, degree is starting in 2 weeks time.
Somehow I am getting mixed emotions.
New faces.
New friends.
New people.
New group.
New...everything.

I have not been a nice person.
Crushed souls, soul being crushed.
Blah blah blah.

Until next time.

Ciao.






Wednesday, September 3, 2014

....Almost.



Can you tell me?
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy?
Can someone tell me how can this be?
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's to late?
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say...

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the time that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you...

I cannot believe I let you go
Or what I should say I should've
grabbeb you up and never let you go
I should've went out with you
I should've made you my boo boy
Yes that's one time I should've broke the rules
I should've went on a date
Should've found a way to escape
Should've turned a almost into
If it happened now its to late
How could I celebrate a love that wasn't real?
And if it didn't happen why does my heart feel?

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you...


..yep. Everything was almost there.
What happened?

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Happy...Independence Day?

Please don't shut me out alright?
Please don't turn your back on me.
You don't have to keep your distance from me.

For the first time in forever,
I've shed tears over someone.
For the first time in forever,
I don't know how to feel.

I've been on a roller-coaster of emotions,
And now I'm stuck at the low point.
Dear Time, please do your magic,
I can't take this anymore.

Here's what I have been thinking:
1. You're not interested anymore.
2. A cold treatment so that it is easier for you to leave, for me to forget you and nobody gets hurt.
But I'm hurt already.
3. I expected too much.

I don't know what happened,.
Please, can't we fix this together?
I'll keep my distance for now,
Until the next firework sound and then we'll make our own fireworks again.
But for now, I wish you all the best no matter where you are.


I don't know the chance of you reading this post but if you do come across this post, yeah. Please.